Finally! Jen’s got a new post, I know! Thank you for your patience! I came off a long weekend, then life just decided to really hit me. Haven’t been too good with my emotions, but I’m back, baby.
Let me start by saying this: I did something I’d never done before over the Memorial Day Weekend! Miss too-afraid-to-step-out-of-her-comfort-zone (that’s me!) decided to try on and purchase her first 2 piece swimsuit! And I’ll be damned if I wasn’t gonna rock it on the beach! At first, I considered wearing a cover, but y’all, this Texas heat does not play! I just went for it! And man, did I feel good! I felt fresh, I felt free! I honestly cannot remember the last time I felt that incredible! It was such a liberating feeling. And I couldn’t give two f*cks if anyone on the beach had anything to say about it because, well, it’s my body and I’ll do what I please!
I’m beginning to live my life much more unapologetically. And let me tell you, life is so much sweeter this way! I spent a good chunk of my late teens and early 20’s so wrapped up in what others thought of me, I didn’t really live with confidence. That, my dear readers, is a sad way to live. To live with confidence is so rewarding! If you’re living with confidence, it means you’re living happily, unbothered by what anyone has to say. It’s so refreshing not to care about others’ opinions. That’s one of the main reasons I started this blog to begin with. I wanted to express myself and share a story that not many people knew. Additionally, I wanted to prove to myself just how far I’ve come over the last few years. Hell, five years ago, I could barely do a squat. And now, squats are probably the easiest part of any workout I do.
And I’m happy. Oh, Lord. I am so happy. I’m in love. I feel like I’ve been given a new lease on life, truly. I’ve been freed from the hell I put myself through in my last “relationship,” if you can even call it that. I will no longer apologize for who I am. Ever. This is who I am, and it’s so great to have a man who understands that. To have someone who is my best friend and my number one fan by my side is the best thing I could ask for. He’s my motivation on rough days. I dream of our future, and that is what keeps me going.
And speaking of motivation, I guess all this fitness stuff has spilled over into my work life, because my coworkers have decided to have a weight loss challenge over the summer months! Yikes! I am definitely not 100% ready for this. But I will definitely try my best! I plan on documenting the next few months’ nutrition and weight loss on this blog! So stay tuned!
Work for a cause, not for applause. Live life to express, not to impress. Don’t strive to make your presence noticed, just make your absence felt.